Tuesday 24 May 2011

Tuesday 24th May 2011

Forgot to mention yesterday - I have acquired dents in my shoulders where my bra rests. It is really sore and painful! Whoever said it was good to have large breasts I totally disagree! I am so fed up with wearing a bra 24/7 but it is still too uncomfortable to go without - they still weigh heavily on to my abdomen and it just feels horrible without one. It actually gives me the hump as it makes me too aware of them!

I am loving being able to sleep on my side again though - with my v pillow propped up underneath it is a luxury and makes sleep much more comfortable. Now its just baby that keeps me up!

I went to the gym today and when I was on the bike I felt my boobs swinging around in my bra!!!! Normally they feel tightly packed in to this particular bra but today was different. I am hopeful that this means they have slightly reduced. Its not much as I still don't fit the smaller sized bras that I own but I felt quite pleased although the swinging feeling is not the most comfortable in the world!!! My friend said today that she thought they looked smaller but I just thought it was down to the top I was wearing as certain tops can make them appear smaller but now I am thinking they have gone done a smidgen! Dare I hope anyway......

Monday 23 May 2011

Monday 23rd May 2011

In the past couple of weeks I still have had no further regression. I think we can safely say that I am going to be the small percentage of sufferers who has none until I receive medical intervention. In terms of how I am feeling I am still having good and bad days. I am in absolute agony with my back still and now have sores underneath my breasts where they are so heavy and rubbing against my torso. The hot weather isn't helping as I am sweating so much it is causing the rubbing which is causing the sores! Nice eh??!! The back ache is not helping me cope with carrying the baby and the buggy well, but I have just got to get on with it!

I have started to see my counsellor again which is really helping. Just having someone to talk with and get everything offloaded helps enormously.

I am still encountering some lovely people out there who are more than ready to pass comments/judgements on my chest. I have to say I have been reacting more angrily lately but thats their tough luck for not having any tact, and I feel if they are ok to say things to me then I am perfectly within my rights to comment back.

I haven't had anymore fellow sufferers contact me through this site as yet but this has been set up for if and when the time comes that somebody needs this support network!

Til next time xx

Saturday 7 May 2011

Saturday 7th May 2011

Spoke to the breast consultant a couple of days ago about the leaking from my nipples and the lumps in both breasts. He told me this is all completely normal and nothing to worry about it. This is just all part and parcel of the condition. However, he did say that if this is still happening when I go for my next appointment in July then we will have to put off my referral to the plastic surgeon for a while longer. This is not good news.... I am very hopeful that this will not be the case as I don't think I can handle waiting any longer so fingers crossed.

I have also been able to start sleeping on my side. This is brilliant after months of having to sleep on my back whilst pregnant. I still have to prop my v pillows around me but it is so much more comfortable and bearable than it was before. These little things make me so happy as I feel like I am finally getting somehow - I just hope I really am!

Monday 2 May 2011

Monday 2nd May 2011

Well the past couple of weeks have been mega busy - baby Samuel is certainly keeping me busy but he is just so gorgeous and I am loving every minute of him!! Despite all that I have been through he is just fantastic!

I tried to get a bra with wires in this week but was unsuccessful - basically the biggest size available made me spill out of the top and was really uncomfortable. However, I did manage to get a sports bra and it is fantastic. It actually fits tightly around my ribcage and just offers plenty of support. It is amazing how much better I feel just from wearing a decent fitting bra. I have also been able to buy a couple of short sleeve t-shirts (as the warm weather has meant wearing cardigans is out of the question!) The bra has helped make the tops look slightly better than when wearing the bras purchased in my pregnancy as they don't look quite so droopy! Fingers crossed they will get me through summer or at least until my surgery. Note to any bra manufacturers. Women with small backs sometimes need massive cup sizes too you know, whether they suffer severe hypertrophy or for any other reason! Maybe you could make up to L cups with wires and without and also make them pretty as just because you have large boobs doesn't mean you can only wear dowdy bras!

I can honestly say I haven't had much more regression which is disappointing. I have got 2 very prominent lumps in one breast and both nipples are leaking a bloody discharge but apparently this is all normal and also partly due to the fact I have just had a baby. I am still going to ring my consultant this week to discuss with him as it does worry me slightly. My backache is continuing to haunt me and the itchiness in both breasts has returned too.

Another positive thing is that I was contacted last week by a fellow sufferer of this condition - who understands completely my feelings! It has been so good to e-mail someone in the same position and to vent my frustrations and get some positive feedback from someone that actually knows! I am hoping we can keep in touch and updated with each others stories. Again it has really helped me to be in contact with someone as I don't feel quite so alone as a sufferer! This was exactly what I hoped to gain from this blog so I am happy! Thank you so much for contacting me!

This week I have attempted to do some exercise. High impact aerobics (my absolute favourite form of exercise) is still totally off limits. Jumping is just a no-no with these boobs!! Also it is a little too soon after giving birth. However I was able to complete my toning dvds and ride on my exercise bike successfully. I could also do the low impact form of combat style exercises which also made me happy. Exercise has always been my stress buster so I am hoping that gradually with time I will be back to my usual standard!! It so helps my outlook when I work out so, even though its not what I prefer to do it is still something, so I am hoping to keep going. I may even attempt the gym in a couple of weeks - maybe a walk on the treadmill, biking or the cross trainer. I am hoping that a spin class may be on the agenda too soon.....

Well thats about all I have to update for now. Baby Samuel wants another feed so will be in touch as soon as I have more to report!